"Finding" my passion has been something like a Treasure Hunt this past year.
Preparing for The Hunt:
Years ago I came across an audio presentation at the local library from Cheryl Richardson called Finding Your Passion. I listened to it passionately, felt the excitement in her voice, agreed with much of what she said, but that was about it. I was busy taking care of life as it happened around me. Recently, due to feeling restless, bored, and quite unpassionate, in addition to having an exceptionally long commute I pulled it out and listened to it again. This time with a bit more maturity under my belt, a genuine willingness to explore, and with heart and mind more opened through fervent prayers to pursue God's purpose for me in this life, I listened.
Starting The Hunt:
Since I typically keep my journal close by at all times, I took the opportunity to write down some questions and thoughts I had while listening. As the next few weeks sped past me I found the value in what I call "letting things marinate" in my mind, heart, and soul. As I became more infused with the flavors of passion and awareness, I realized I had some preconceived notions about what a passion-filled life means. Notion #1: I will ALWAYS love what I am doing when I am pursuing my passions. Notion #2: I will rarely run into obstacles or barriers if I am TRULY doing what I feel passionate about. So, I started changing the questions I asked myself. I asked: What do I do that makes me feel fulfilled at the end of the day? What have I done on those days that I feel I've made a difference in the world around me?
Finding The Treasures:
I sat for quite some time with those last two questions mulling around in my heart. An answer would pop up and I would note it, and then leave room again for the question until I felt I was as aware as I wanted to be about the passions within me. In reflecting upon the things I had made mental notes of, I realized that my life was already full of activities, work, pastimes, and hobbies I am passionate about.
The Treasures:
The realization that my passions were overflowing in my life was by far one of the most personally valuable treasures I encountered. It gave meaning and purpose where none had been before. It increased my sense of fulfillment in my day-to-day activities. I was able to see God's hand even more in the paths He had placed me on. More than anything, having an awareness of the gifts, talents, and passions I had been blessed with, increased my gratitude and sheer awe in the God who created me. I felt more connected to Him and felt The Holy Spirit confirm His love and adoration for me as my Heavenly Father. Both my faith and trust increased exponentially.
What else did I find, you ask?
I commute 1.5 hours one way to work every day. Perhaps to everyone else, I am stating the obvious, but I discovered on this recent journey I am passionate about my job and profession. I saw for the first time that there's NO WAY I would tolerate a minimum of 3 hours driving per day if I wasn't absolutely dedicated to what I was doing. I supervise a mental health outpatient clinic for children and families. The children I work with have been ravaged by abuse, neglect, drug abuse, violence, crime, poor education, and poverty. They are supposed to be taken care of by a state system that is faulty, laden with corruption, and values $$ and compliance more than quality services for children. In this environment there are myriads of things I could focus on, but what I value as a manager is supporting and encouraging my staff members who include case managers, behavior specialists, and therapists to do the best job they can do. I try to provide a working environment at our office and through their interactions with me where they can be as effective, productive, sensitive, and thorough as they possibly can for the children and the demands placed upon them. I am available (pretty much 24/7) to provide direction, discernment, supervision, and most of all to listen. Although I am no longer on the front lines so-to-speak, my heart breaks, I shed many tears, and say numerous prayers over the children we serve. I've increased my openness about my faith in my work environment and as a result have encountered several women who are fervent Christians. Our lives have been enriched as we share our faith-filled conversations and thoughts with each other. Although I experience many difficulties and frustrations. I leave at the end of most days feeling like I have made a difference in at least one child's life.
I am passionate about Erin, Bohdan, and our adoption. I love this woman more than I can ever express. I am grateful that she seems as passionate about our relationship as I am. In my busy, busy life, she is one of the only people I make time to communicate with regularly. Erin and I are into our 4th year of a friendship forged through a shared motherhood. Every day, my Heavenly Father confirms for me that this precious little guy is in the family he is supposed to be in. From afar, I love him, and do my best to love and support his mother as she faces the struggles and joys of parenting. My relationship with Erin has taught me about my character, dedication, compassion, and so much more. I dedicate time every year to create scrapbook pages for Bohdan so that he can see his brothers and sisters grow and keep abreast of their activities, likes / dislikes, and interests. Hopefully by the end of this year I will have completed the things I need to in order to start working with birth mothers again as they struggle their way through emotions, societal norms, family values, guilt, and make the decision to either keep or place their baby for adoption.
I am passionate about creating meaning out of paths my life and the lives of my children have taken as well as creating something tangible to represent that meaning. I utilize several avenues to accomplish this: quilting, scrapbooking, and artwork. Currently, I am working on a project for my daughter, Brianne, who is going to college next year. It is a scrapbooked collection of character-defining moments in her life, quotes, poems, thoughts, and excerpts from a variety of women about their lives. My desire was to provide my daughter with input from women other than myself about how they have handled different decisions, and what advice they would give, or thoughts they would share with a young woman as she discovers who she is. I wanted her to know there are many "right" paths. Maybe I could ask some of you too.
I am passionate about creating environments that are esthetically pleasing, calm, peaceful, efficient, clean, and organized.
I am passionate about off-roading in my Jeep. Anything I would do that requires I pack a cooler, maxed-out diaper bag, and Jeep full of supplies along with a 9mo. old, 2 yr. old and 7 yr old. for a 10 hour day of driving along muddy trails in 105 degrees equates to a passion.
All in all I found far more than what I thought I was looking for. I believe additional passions will reveal themselves with time and as my life circumstances change, but for now, I am peacefully passionately busy.
With Love--Stacy
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Stacy,
ReplyDeleteThrough Erin, I have been privileged to get to know a bit about you. It's so apparent that your passions stem from a huge heart. (With the job you have, you would never thrive in a position like that without one.) I loved your explanation of finding your passions as a journey. I think some people are innately called to certain passions, but the rest of us have to discover them. Many don't feel like taking the time or mental energy in finding their passions, but the process you describe is slow and natural but purposeful. And it is so valuable!
The "scrapbook" you are creating for Brianne sounds amazing, and you are indeed the best and most creative scrapbooker I have ever met - it is quite inspiring! Thank you so much for sharing, Stacy. I hope we'll hear many more times from you here on our blog. And as far as your off-roading, you are a braver woman than I.(lol)
May you continue to stay peaceful and passionate and the busyness is up to you! :-)
Love,
Crystal
Wow Stacy - I have always thought God used Bo to bring me you, just as much as he used you to bring me Bo. This is so very true. Thanks for sharing your passions with me, and now with the rest of the Kajijis! I can really appreciate your journey over the last year and have much to learn from it. You always ask such good questions, of yourself and others, I look forward spending time reflecting on the ones you listed here.
ReplyDeleteI remember, thanks to your posting, that I was supposed to send you something for Bri, I promise to do that this week!
Being a gear-head (what we called the off roaders) in high schoo, I am very jealous of your off-roading adventures - you simply must have one in my honor soon!
Love you tons and tons-
Erin
Very well-written and explained, Stacey; thanks for sharing. And nice to "e-meet" you too!
ReplyDelete~Susan